Confession

I need to make a little confession.

I just finish reading the novel “Shopaholic and sister”. It is a series novel, and this one talks about Rebecca (the shopaholic) and her long lost sister.

Of course I am nothing closed to her. Her obsession with branded stuff and buying non necessary stuff and her obsession with make up and hair do.

I admit I am spending more than I should on shopping, but which woman does not? At least I have done my saving first before I went out shopping and I have got an investment plan that is going pretty well.

I also admit that I started to adore on make up and hair do and pedicure. I used to not bother on putting any make up not even lipstick on my face. But now I would put on some light eye shadow, draw eyeliner and put on the mascara and blush my cheek when i go for work. And I got the shocking pink on my toe nails, all nicely pedicured! It will be a horrible idea to have pink nails to me 10 years ago! Haha.

Most importantly, I have to admit I am a spoiled brat as Rebecca. Not to her extend as I am more responsible and sense in doing things. But I am quite stubborn with my own believing and principle. As the recent event of my decision of changing a job and choosing an offer from two. I chose the one that is against most people advise, as again. Just like the decision of coming back home from London for good. But I never regret in the choice, did I? Neither I regret on any other decisions I made on my study and career. It just strange that most of the time, my own will goes against the rest, and I am not bound to choose a PATH that most people will agree? That’s probably not me then.

It’s only three more weeks before I need to leave, but I have not get a moment excited of living in a new city at all, and meeting up with all the potential new friends. Instead I started to have fear of being lonely again, fear of being home sick plus missing my niece so so much. So I wonder again, if I have to go for this choice and not the other.

Many people show envious of me having the chance to go abroad again and here I am doubting on my choice and worrying not necessary. May be I am just overly worrying, I do think sometimes I am overly sensitive and overly dramatic. Just like REBECCA. Ha, so that is the confession of my day.

A lazy weekend

You may not believe it. But I have not gone out of the house over the weekend (saturday and sunday) other than the short lunch on Saturday noon.

Wow, I can’t believe that either. But I did.

I been longing for a lazy weekend in my cosy home without any plans but it just seem to be impossible. However since my holiday from Bangkok, I have been ease up from my work. Suddenly I have the luxury of having plenty more times for my ownself.

I actually do not know how to use up the unplanned free time. So i stuck myselves with things I wanted to do. I watched a movie, download mp3, blogging, read two books and sleep a whole lot during the weekend.

It’s been really a very lazy weekend for me.

My NIECE’s vocab dictionary

This is my NIECE, my lovely dear niece.

She is just merely 14 months and started to talk some sense.

The following is her as of now vocab dictionary, it is hard to limit it to a definite list as she is learning real fast.

So here it goes:

1. “Seik” – As in eat in cantonese, this is her first learned word. Whenever she sees food and she wants to eat she said this. Recently she has been using it interchanging with “Mumm Mumm“.

2. “Pa pa” – A term that she used to call her dad and also her mum. Apparently she still can’t quite distinguish between Pa Pa and Ma Ma.

3. “Ma Ma” – Only used to refer to her mum when we corrected her after referring her Ma Ma as Pa Pa.

4. “Gai Gai” Ah – Her usual accent when she wants to go for a walk, ended up with a high pitch in the Ah.

5. “bao bei” ya – Her little blue blanket that she must hug when she sleeps. So she will walk and wonder in the house and keep on saying “bao bei ya” until she finds it and satisfiedly holding it.

5. “Byie” ya – Her own way of saying good bye if she is in a good mood.

6. ”non more” – Supposingly is “No More”. A term that I taught her when I finish bathing her, so that she knows there is no more water to play with. However, today she used it confusingly as “no” when she indicates she does not want to finish the milk.

7. “bish” – A term that she just learned yesterday. She is refered to fish actually but didn’t pronounce it the way it should be.

8. “xie xie” – Shoe in mandarin, refering to her shoes when she wants to go out for a walk.

9. “goot goot” – Baby term of plain water. She used it when she wants to drink water.

10. “nien nien” – Milk in baby term.

11. “yao yao yao” – Refering her sleeping net, I used that as her swing as well thus the term.

12. “wou wou wou” – A dog.

13. “da” – Hitting in mandaring. She says this when she sees the big bad wolf in her litter red riding hood story book.

The list goes on, the rest were not listed here, because she is speaking her own baby language and I am not able to decode it with my adult vocab dictionary. Perhaps one day when she speak more adult language or when I have make advancement in her baby language.

Music & Lyrics – Way Back Into LOVE

It all started with a preview of “Music & Lyrics” on Astro
Then a RM100 Borders voucher that urge me to visit Borders
Then the discover of “Music & Lyrics” on the VCD rack
Then I bought it and came across this song “Way Back Into LOVE”

I do feel that it is not simply coincidence, it happened with a purpose to remind me of what I should do
Another song that represent a stage of my life that I am going through

Presenting the Drew Barrymore with Hugh Grant version.

[Verse 1]
(Drew Barrymore)
I’ve been living with a shadow overhead,
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I’ve been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can’t seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I’ve been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can’t make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I’ve been searching but i just don’t see the signs,
I know that it’s out there,
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I’m open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can’t make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can’t make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

Bangkok Trip Photos

View my bangkok trip’s phot here.